SUPER PLAYED!!

I know I said I would t be writing on here but I just saw a few pics on fb that pissed me off for just a little bit and then made me laugh historically! Mona SUPER PLAYED me and I can laugh about it! Good for her! She got me good this time! I knew something was always up by the dimension of the pics she sent me lmao. And I called her out on the shit once before and of course she denied it, but I just saw like 8 in a row out of NO WHERE not even thinkin of her and the pics just looked familiar! If she does still read this then I'm sure she knows I don't hate her, but I hate what she did. And a lesson for the next time she decides to play someone for free shit and bullshit and decide to send someone "pics"....here's a hint. Send pics of YOU WITH YOUR FACE in the pic....cause cropping SOMEONE ELSE'S FACE out and saying its YOU is NOT a good idea especially if your "boyfriend" or more so for you "sugar daddy" has Facebook....ALL OF THE PICS YOU SEND OUT (and I mean ALL of them) ARE ON FACEBOOK AND GUESS WHAT?! THE REAL BITCHES FACE IS IN THOSE PICS THAT YOU SAID IS YOUR BODY YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING, LYING, STEALING AND CHEATING FEMALE! Amazing mother, but you were right about one thing that I was in constant denial of...a TERRIBLE GIRLFRIEND! Congrats Ramona...you won again.

Disappear?

Sorry but I can't sleep. Mona has been on my mind but I'm beginning to almost hate her. I won't go back on my word of she ever needs me but what was done is beginning to really hit. So many thoughts and words I want to say. And of course she's back to her old self as if nothing happened while I play fake "it's whatever". I don't want to hate her but she seems to make it pretty fucking easy to do so. I didn't delete her completely when I really should. Things will never be the same no matter what. Maybe I need to disappear completely. I'll take a week to think about it. I almost have no choice because she really was and is the love of my life, but now after everything that has happened I feel like everything was a lie and yet again I was not the only one. I'm going to stop before I say way too much and my words get out of hand. I'll see how this long week goes before I make a final decision on wether I become a ghost or not. But from now on IF I choose to talk to another woman. I'll never love or trust any female ever again.

Last blog post

Me and Mona are done. I'm officially broken with nothing left. Betrayed and unloved is where I belong. Depression is my reality and happiness is a dream for fools. She will forever have my heart and never will another. Because is love only gets you hurt and she was right all along. So the first sign I see at happiness then I need to kill it before it kills me again. Good bye

Just a few more hours!!!

Everyone is super excited to see Mona tomorrow! I love her so much and can't wait to finally be with her. But she's lagging terribly on telling me the time she arrives!

Interesting talk and I'm not even mad, shocked or hurt. I actually understand the situation. Wether or not I agree with it is different, but we're good. Now for my dad on the other hand. I am PISSED!!!!!!! -____-

Uncomfortable

Mona has recently had me feeling a little uncomfortable and uneasy. Certain actions or should I say lack of have had me concerned if not scared. I know she said that we needed to talk last night but I was too late. Maybe that's why I couldn't sleep last night and have been up since 4am.

I can't sleep...