So I dozed off for a little bit and woke up pissed as fuck. I've been having an awkward feeling toward certain people on twitter that converse with Mona. Last time around that same feeling proved right and it hurt beyond belief. I pray history does not repeat itself. Even though this may be my own insecurities. I still love that damn woman and if I want to ever learn to fully trust 100% then I need to not put myself in situations that provoke such thoughts. I'll talk to her tomorrow about it but this is seriously a HUGE step for an extremely jealous person like myself. Maybe I should sleep on it and see if I'm really ready to make such a commitment like stay off of her twitter and such. I do believe she wouldn't/ isn't doing anything disrespectful or unfaithful to me and our loving relationship but again the past can never be forgotten, but forgiven. I'm I wrong for wanting to hear her voice all the time? Am I wrong for being so protective of someone I love and cherish in my life because she makes me happy? Am I wrong from genuinely smiling and feeling warm from such simple yet impact full words "I love you papi"? I having iffy dreams that make me doubt myself on wether I'm good enough for the one I love. Fuck, I hate nightmares!
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