Nothing new..

I'm home. Still irritated with a huge ass headache and tired now. Night...

I was going to vent because my mood was sent sideways but instead I'm going for a drive...

Feeling Alone & Lost

Irritated a bit and my mind is all over the place on bullshit. I can't sleep and can't help but complain as if that ever fucking helps. No one wants to talk or listen and the only thing I feel I have left is headaches and love for the girl of my dreams that doesn't quite understand me. Family is getting on my nerves. I want August 26th to hurry up and get here. I'm sexually frustrated out of my fucking mind and every little thing is getting to me as if everyone is pushing a fucking button of mine. Rob is a mean ass who's about to get a Fucking reality check next time he wants to get smart with me on something stupid. Facebook is annoying and twitter pisses me off for numerous reasons. And no I'm not talking about any "flirting" or bullshit remarks. It would just be nice to receive someone undivided attention for once. Im finding it harder and harder to have a GOOD day. A GREAT day is asking for way too much right now. I just want to have a day where nothing can get me down and I feel like that won't happen until I pick up Mona from the airport and I'm sure my mood will be untouchable that whole week. No doubt about it, but right now it's a struggle. I'm doing my best to get by and not let things phase me but FUCK! I feel like I'm losing myself and it scares me. I miss being the overly happy "ha ha let's have fun" Prince. Maybe I'm around Rob too much. Maybe I need to stop over thinking dumb shit. Maybe I need to cut social networks. Or maybe I just reaching for something that will never come. I know no one is perfect, but imperfections can always be worked on. I'm trying, but I feel like no one else is or gives a damn. There's only 2 close to perfect people in my eyes to an extent and that's Mona and my sister Danielle. Anyways, I'm gonna go for a drive until I either run out of gas or clear my mind. We'll see which comes first, but something is telling me gas will be. I'm out.

Greatest Love

I miss my Mona Lisa. My heart skips a beat every time I hear her say "I love you papi". I love knowing that I have such a faithful woman who gave me her heart. Good night

Day Off

My mind has been doing so much thinking with how my moods have been these last 2 weeks and I woke up utterly DRAINED! I'm just gonna do NOTHING today and relax mentally and emotionally. Now I understand what Mona was talking about. Anyways, that's about it for today. No more post until tomorrow.

Over It..seriously

I honestly don't even give a shit anymore about these twitter arguments. I just wanna keep it moving and be happy. Only reason this bullshit is a big deal tonight is because I'm super irritable today and I knew some shit like this would happen. So I'm really just blowing it out of proportion. And I only did that because she brought it up as if I should be mad like I usually do. But in reality I'm just TIRED. I already know she's not going to do anything behind my back. I trust and love her. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT AND HAVEN'T FOR A WHILE AS FAR AS TWITTER GOES. I just want to enjoy my relationship. She knows what's right and wrong. She's grown, mature (unless we're arguing), intelligent and this time around...I truly believe loyal and has given me her heart as I gave her mine. She really is wonderful. She pointed out to me I talk negative about her majority of the time on here. I can now agree that it's true but that's because I don't know anyway else to get out my frustration. I promised myself never to physically fight again off of emotion due to a past issue that almost ruined my life. So I learned how to expressed myself through writing and I don't want to put it on twitter or Facebook. That's why I have this private blog that only 1 person knows about. You have no idea how much I would like to start a fight on the street, but I won't unless it's self defense. And my immediate reaction is always driving in the hills, but I really need to chill on that because I'm high on emotions and speed at the wrong times. I love her so fucking much and then feel bad because I know I read in to certain things that aren't there. Only thing I've been dead on about is how guys flirt. But she's with me, not them. I know this. She's the most gorgeous, caring, gentle, sexy, amazing woman I have ever met (no my mom nor sister count because I don't find them sexy). So from today on, I'm not concerning myself with her twitter. It's really not worth it and it's up to her wether or not to do the right thing. I'm over the being claimed crap. Her family and friends know who I am and what I mean to her. That's all that matters. My mood today has just been on edge from the moment I stepped out my room waking up in the morning to right about now. I'm letting go of my stress on financial issues because I can't just stay mad over issues that are out of my control. And with frustrations at home, I just need Mona there for me. Not mad because my attitude carried in to her and it had nothing to do with her in the first place. She was the one that made me feel best all day until the bullshit we just went through an hour ago. I just need a good laugh and her voice to make me smile. Good night

OVER EXAGGERATION PARTY!!! LET'S ALL GO OFF THE DEEP END!!! YES!!!! I'M LOVING IT!!!!

Hell Yeah!

Awesome day! And woke up to more awesomeness! Love it!

Let it go

Going to play some tennis. Free my mind a bit and remember you can't expect people to think the same way as you do. I should be used to this by now, but for some reason I'm not. Maybe I'm going insane.

Off to a great start this saturday. Have a beautiful day.

Walking On Clouds

Fuck I love that girl. I may act dumb or she may think I'm never satisfied but I just love admiring her beauty. Honestly she is my drug. I'm addicted and can't get enough. I probably sound repetitive in all these post talking about how amazing she is. How her beauty is unmatched. How in love I am with her, but it's all the truth. This is how I feel every morning I wake up. She's on my mind 24/7 and I will never lie to her. She brings me too much happiness to risk ever losing her. I seriously can not wait until I have her in my arms. There are TONS of things I plan on doing to her. Oh my god! My Mona Lisa is my angel and I'll love her with my heart and soul and nothing less. Even if lord forbid we separate. I will state and promise that she will have my heart no matter what. Even if I'm a broken man, I will always answer her calls, respond to her text, welcome every hello, and wipe every tear she may shed as long as I live. I can say this because I know what I want. I've lived life with a lot of experiences, trials and tribulations to know how much of a commitment that is. That is also why I chose her to be the mother of my children and we will share a beautiful life together. She is all I need. She is all I want. There's loving somebody and there's being in love with that special someone. I am in love with Ramona Victoria Salgado and I am not ashamed to say so or ever deny it.

HORNY AF!!!!

I'm horny as fuck and Mona is sleep. I think I'm gonna have some fun with this new pic. Can't wait til 8/26! Good night.

Yea...just a little irritated...but I don't care to explain....laying down

Forget It..

Certain things I need to stop asking for because it just never happens. Maybe I'll be surprised one day. Who knows? But for now, I'm just gonna shut up on special request that I'm basically begging for it seems.

Feeling good

Other than not really talking to Mona today, my day was good. I did get frustrated when she went to bed early on me but I understand if she was really tired. It just sucks cause she's usually so busy during the day we hardly talk and she sucks at responding to my text. So it feels like night time is all I really have. But she'll be going out basically this whole weekend (Friday, Saturday) so I just have to suck it up. I just want August 26th to hurry up and come so I can finally have her in my arms. I did get my 6 ft. iPhone USB cable which is awesome! I think I might order the 10ft. I no longer feel constricted to laying on my arm in one damn spot. I can move freely. So maybe I don't need the 10 ft. cable lol. I finally got my air max's I asked Mona to get me, but do to circumstances she was unable to. I also got Mona the running shoes she wanted (not the exact color though) as well as the big little homie Diego some navy CP3's. Kids shoes in his size are hard to find because he's that size that borderlines infant and toddler. They always sell out first. I only have one HUGE problem that's been popping up a lot lately. I'M OVERLY HORNY AS FUCK! OH MY GOD! I think (if I can remember correctly) I probably jacked off to Mona's text once and pics 4 times today...and I'll most likely get one in before I go to bed lol. I don't know what it is that has me wanting her more than usual (which is already a lot). I'm not sure if it's her full luscious lips. Her picture perfect body. Those flawless eyes. Or the sound of her erotic voice when calling me "papi". I've just been wanting her like crazy and been in the need of more pics or something. But the highlight of the week was this picture.


That made me smile more than anything. I appreciate the thought that Diego wanted to show me this and really feeling the love from my Mona Lisa. Things as simple as this make it all worth it. Diego's not even my son but it feels like he cares. The day I am blessed to share a child with Mona will be the happiest day of my life and I know it. And even in a worst case scenario that we never have children, I will love Diego as if he were my own. Never to replace his real father, but to be there if he ever needed anything. I can honestly say I love Diego & Mona both without ever having physical contact and it's an amazing feeling. I like going to bed happy. It's so much better than going to sleep upset. Good night.

Sigh...

Maybe I'll talk to her sometime this week...let me finish laundry then go to the gym...bummed...good night

Ugh...Move Forward

I feel stupid for sitting in this car crying...but it sucks fucking shit knowing I hurt her...but it was good to hear her voice...I love her so much...now I have to prepare myself to actually go a day without her...Oh yeah, Von's cousin Kolton and his girl Serina (Tiny) come to visit the week before Mona and leave the day she arrives...I forgot to tell her that as well as something else...but now isn't the time...but knowing I'll see her next month (6weeks from now) is exciting and I plan on having nothing with fun with her and Diego...I need to stop thinking of yesterday and look forward to tomorrow (not tomorrow literally but you know what I mean).

Well I know she's not sleeping...she simply rather be on instagram and doesn't want to talk to me...driving it is...peace

Busy

The later it gets, the lonelier I feel and can't help but think. Maybe I'll go for a drive and relax my mind. I've been doing ok and actually had a good day. My dad helped a lot. I'm also glad I didn't get any text or calls about last nights drunk crap that went down. I was debating on going to the gym but I honestly don't have the energy after today's match. So I guess a drive wins. But I think I'll wash it first. That's a good way to keep busy and clear my mind. I think I'll clean my moms too since she lied saying she'll go to a car wash lol. Stupid brain. Stop thinking of her so damn much. I think it's funny how I can hide my heart but not my thoughts. For most people it's the other way around. Oh well, I still refuse to go a day without saying good morning and good night to Mona and letting her know I love her because you never know when that day could be your last.

My dad is awesome

So my dad noticed I wasn't focused as I usually am on the tennis court today and pin pointed exactly what was up with me. He said "last time you were this out of it in the court was when Ardis ate all those god damn pills and nearly killed herself" (in his voice it sounds funny lol). Then he said "did something happen with you and Mona? Ramona? What's her name again" (again, if you knew my dad you'd laugh like I did while correcting him). I said "both were right dad" lol. At the same time he usually doesn't show interest in my personal/ love life, but he's always been curious about Mona. So either he didn't like Ardis (which I believe is part it lol) or he really wants to know about Mona. Anyways, he asked what the problem was but he didn't want too much detail. He told me to round it up in short. He said "I don't need to know all your business". So I told him how I almost overreacted and did something dumb and now she needs time to herself to get over it. His exact words "well that was smart dummy. There's nothing you can do now. Just let her be and keep busy to take your mind off of it." and then for the FIRST TIME! THE FIRST TIME EVER! He asked me "do you love her?". You have to understand my dad is NOT the emotional type what so ever. So hearing this was a big deal. And he cut me off saying "judging by the way you grin when I say her name you obviously do". And he said don't worry about it, you two will be just fine. And it made me think of the first time we knew we loved each other but was scared of saying it and said "I strange feeling you/ I strange feeling you too". That hands down is my favorite memory of Mona and I. So basically I'm going to finally pick my damn mood up. I know what I thought, did and said was wrong. I apologized, but I understand now that just because she accepted my apology doesn't mean she's over it. So I'll be waiting with all smiles for my Mona Lisa. My dad is awesome and knows exactly how to cheer me up. Then after I won the match and took his money (yes we put $50 up) he said he should've waited to talk to me after I lost. But yeah lol, I love my dad. No matter how quiet we both may be with each other. I'm still closer to him than my mom and able to tell him anything.

I'm missing her...bad...

Taking it in..

With the exception of last nights bullshit. I'm continuing to let Mona have her time. Most I said was "goo morning" today. I'm not going to call or text her unless she does so. As much as this sucks and is killing me, I'm backing her and respecting her choice. I'll be waiting patiently for my love to fully come back to me. I still wish I never hurt her in the first place and I will not let such a dumb thing happen again. I love my angel Mona Lisa.

What...the...fuck...I'm stuck in bullshit and I don't feel like explaining it right now....fucking Rob and Maggie are drunk as shit and me and Von got ourselves stuck...I hate babysitting drunk people...Maggie is decent...funny as fuck but cool...Rob is a bitch to deal with though sober so drunk Rob is even worst....UGH!!!

.....

I'm hurting but I will never regret loving. With Mona, I took that chance to love again. Of course we may have our rocky moments but everything is correctable. I know now how much I hurt her. Knowing she shed tears over what I told her was crushing. But then she told me she's pulling back some and basically felt like she ripped my heart out of my chest. I was literally breathless. I didn't cry, but tears automatically fell from my eyes. It's almost as if she was saying "I don't want to love you anymore". Even me, the person that always wants to talk things out and clear things up and solve our problems couldn't speak nor did I want to. I fell in to an automatic depression. She may not realize it because I'm not there physically, but all I do is think of her all the time. Mona is my love, my heart, my world. Even I was mad at myself for reacting to a stupid dream as I did. Let alone have the nerve to ever think to break up over a dream. And I'm sorry, but this isn't the same. One is a dream and a mistake. But this is a conscious decision that she made about us. So when she said "I love you" before we hung up, I was thinking. I didn't hesitate to show my love because I never do. But I was thinking how can you love me but want to pull away. It almost felt like when she broke up with me last year and I fell in to a deep depression. I couldn't do anything once I heard those words from her with such lack of compassion. And then have the nerve to say she's going to act like it never happened when she's doing the exact opposite by wanting to pull away. But of course Mona is mad at me. My mom is mad at me because I didn't clean her car. I lost the will to do anything at that moment those words came from Mona's mouth. I haven't spoke to anyone sense ignoring all twitter, Facebook notifications as well as calls and text. I just want to be left alone. Because without Mona, nothing really matters to me. That may sound sad but it's true. She's what helped me get by on my down days. She's my reason to smile. She's my reason I wake up early at 6:30/7am when I don't have to just to say "good morning". I can make all the complaints in the world on what she doesn't, won't, or can't do. But none of that will ever overcome or even equal a fraction of how much I love her. I'm probably taking this harder than I should but I can't help it. This is my last post of the day. I'm drained and just want to sleep the day away hoping this was all just a dream as well. But unfortunately it's not...and I'm broken...

...........

Broken

I couldn't hold back the tears after that and I couldn't stay on the phone...I just want to be left alone now...I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me

Shitty day

Knowing you made someone you love cry is the worst feeling in the world...

Done for the day..

Wow...worst I've felt in years...I'm trying not to cry but this is reminding me of when my mom refused to talk to me...I love Mona too much to ever want to hurt her...I don't know how much more I could explain it

I hate this...

Feeling Worst

So last night I overreacted to a dream that felt more real than I wanted. I was filled with anger, frustration & disappointment last night and almost did something incredibly stupid like break up with my Mona Lisa. No she didn't cheat, flirt nor was twitter involved in anyway. I just felt pushed aside and hurt as if it wasn't a big deal to her. And what made it worst to escalate forcing me to have a dumb ass attitude when I woke up. It was like she didn't care and acted like everything was normal. So when I talked to her on the phone and she was normal, I was stuck in the dream. I would explain it but I want to tell her first before I go any further in detail. Now I hurt her feelings and my heart dropped to my stomach knowing I did so. I feel terrible. I'm truly and deeply sorry. I love her with all my heart and never want to hurt her.

Picture Perfect

I wish Mona would send me more sexy pics. I honestly don't this she understand how perfect her body is. I've been Doing pic stitches of her all night. As a matter of fact, I couldn't help myself and came to all of them. God how I wish she would spoil me with pics, but recently its all "No's"...

My Mona Lisa, Corny But TRUE

I'm sorry...she didn't deserve that...I just felt pushed aside and I'm sorry...

Bullshit

I'm going for a fucking drive. I was in a shitty mood from a bullshit dream and realized its a fucking dream. Not real. But I was irritated a little today. Feel like the thing on the to do list. Fuck it. Maybe I can catch a speeding ticket or do something stupid for a quick scare to calm me down. I'm out..

I'm a dumb ass

I just realized I FUCKED UP this pic :( its suppose to be RS...not MS...I'm just so use to calling her Mona I forgot her name starts with a damn R...I'm sad now :(

I hate hearing her upset. I wish I was there. There's so much more she deserves. Distance is so hard to deal with when you love someone so deeply as I do Mona.

I'm Happy

I'm blessed to have such an amazing woman for a girlfriend. I'm truly happy right now and a lot of the things that used to anger me really don't as much anymore. I love Mona with my heart and soul. It feels great to go to bed with nothing but smiles and looking forward to a new day with someone you love. She may not be here physically yet but I keep her with me everywhere I go. Good night

I miss my angel Mona Lisa..

ALL IN HER KOOLAID

I got my Koolaid drinks in the mail today from my Mona Lisa! They are "effin" AWESOME! I thank her very much for those because they're hard to find here in L.A. So like I been texting her, I'm gonna be ALL UP IN HER KOOLAID!

Lights, Camera, Action!

So I'm texting my baby and she disappears. So I say "since I have this hard on I'll watch porn" and put on one of my favorite DVDs "Dangerous Curves" (Abella Anderson, Chanel Preston, Rachel Starr, Jenaveve Jolie, Gina Lynn)


and I was getting frustrated watching the Jenavive Jolie scene because I wasn't being turned on. Then my FAVORITE scene on the DVD comes on with Chanel Preston. Nice sexy, rough sex. I mean she is fucking and getting fucked. Mona tells me to show her what I'm watching, so I did. Now she's getting turned on and calls me to confirm that we're making our own porn. I can hardly wait! I will make sure to fuck her brains out and make her fuck mine back. I plan I filling her up with so much cum she'll be hurt and bloated. But the sexy Mona Lisa likes porn now and I think that is fucking hot! Mona did have some words she would like to share lol *yes I did & will have sexual relations with this man* lol

Love & Growth

Resolved...I think we actually settled that nicely...I think we're growing. Normally we would both be at each others necks but it was a really calm situation. I know she loves me. I never doubted that. Now I just need her here with me ASAP.

Depressed...

Broken

I hate how you can love someone so fucking much even though they sit there disrespecting you clear as day making you look like a fucking chump. I wanna let the world know about her so they can be jealous, instead I'm the over jealous one cause no one knows about me because she wants to act single. I may sound pissed but I'm seriously fucking hurt. Like how much more can I really take? It's almost like she enjoys picking at my heart with some of the shit she does. I'm not saying she messaged anyone. Either that or I'm just a fool for believing her. But it's about what was said and how she doesn't feel like she did anything wrong. Just failed to mention that last night when everything was going smooth but get mad at me for something I thought I told her. I know I have nothing to hide and 1,000% dedicated to her, but I don't always feel the same love back. I'm just too hurt...and it sucks.

Too early for bullshit

Bullshit...who the fuck says follow me and I'll message you for a follow...now your flirt for no fucking reason? You set your self up for morning bullshit. And you have the nerve to get mad at me for not doing some shit and supposedly "flirting" wit a fat chick that I continuously make known I have a girlfriend and your over her flirting for a follow you say?....nice. Good fucking morning.

Really...

I knew the day was too good to be true. Fucking bullshit. Good night...

Holy Cunt Cakes Batman!

JESUS MOTHAFUCKIN CHRIST MONA HAS BEEN ON FIRE TODAY! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE WE'VE BEEN SEXUALLY IN SYNC! MIND BLOWING AND I LOVE IT! FUCK I LOVE THAT WOMAN! CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER TO FINALLY HAVE HER HERE!! DAMN I CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME AND TALK TO HER TONIGHT!!!!

Good Morning

By the way. As far as me being "left hanging" last night, it was more of a me thing. She didn't know (even though I think she should know automatically lol). I'm low key......I'm sorry. I'm a nymphomaniac. She knows she can turn me on when she wants to. And its not that I'm never satisfied with what I get. I just want her to exceed my expectations and allow me to be more familiar with her body as I let her be with mine. I'm sorry but nudes are great to see and her body is seriously like art (I mean seriously, its the most perfect thing in the world next to her smile). Now I miss my Mona Lisa :( Let me go say good morning to her real quick :) Anyways, good morning.

The smallest things

The smallest things bug the shit out of me. All I want is to be acknowledged publicly rather than feel like a closet kept secret. And on top of that I was left hanging basically, again. Whatever. Oh, and I do not like that Ali guy one bit because he gives me the same vibe as that cunt bag kid. Good night.

Blahhhhh

I don't like whatever talk is going down. It makes me feel uneasy.

My dick is throbbing for some attention!

Hurting..

Lately I've been a little out of it emotionally. I feel like I've been burden more than a boyfriend recently. Either I'm too jealous. Too over protective. Too demanding. Or just too much in general. I don't like knowing that I'm the reason for an argument to breakout and such things as court is mentioned. All I asked for is a few days, at most a week to see Mona. I've been requesting this for over a month now and if you want to take it further, almost 2 years. I've expressed how much I hate being mad at her, but I get a even worst feeling when I know she's upset and I can't find a way to possibly help. I would do anything I could for her no matter what. Even when I resented her the most and utterly broke my heart at one point last summer. If she would've ever chose to ask me for anything I would jump at her command. I can't help that I gave her my heart. This is the only woman I have ever initiated the thought of having children with and have no hesitation or second guessing myself. That says a lot knowing I was once engaged in a 9 year relationship and was still scared of sharing a child. I may sound dumb and in love for not having sex in almost 2 years because I am waiting for her, but who cares. I just wish I could help her. I wish I can hold her in my arms and tell her I would never let anything bad happen to her. I wish I could kiss her on her forehead and tell her no one in the world is allowed to ever question her as a woman and definitely not as a mother. She's too beautiful and amazing to ever have to shed a tear or be moved over false accusations and empty threats. I love how she actually speaks up and stands up for herself. Her independence and dedication as a mother stretches beyond belief to me. She will be the mother to my child/ children. I refuse to ever lose her again and that is a promise! Sometimes I wish I could do more than I can but distance truly is holding me back and it hurts.

Well it looks like last night will be continuing in to today. I said if you can't do something right now then don't worry about it. Instead I get an attitude ridden voice. Whatever, I love her either way and I hate being upset at her so I let it all go last night right before I went to sleep. Today is a new day so I'll keep it moving for now. Last nights issue can be taken care of another day. No big.

Clarification

Now that I'm home after my drive. I need to explain my use of using the word "ducking". It's not that I was being ignored. I was being somewhat dodged. And I mean from the beginning. What was promised to me was said to be done on Friday, but it never was. It felt like it was more procrastinating. Saturday I really didn't say anything because I knew what all was happening that day and I left it be. Most I said was can we do it tomorrow (today, Sunday) and I was told "yes". So when it was brought up this morning when nothing was going on, it was kind of just pushed aside by tv. Now there's just shy of a 8 hour gap of no real communication (which sucks too btw) but I'm sure there was time to do what I asked, but somewhere in between there she was reminded of something important that she needs to help with. That I understand (even though I feel like there's always something that comes up) but I've been aware of the specific situation for a good while. But I was being ducked the whole time before that and that's my issue. If you can't or don't want to do something then just tell me. It's not hard. Everyone has an attitude when they don't get what they want and she's a prime example of that. But something like this I can push slightly to the side. Now I refuse to push stuff aside forever or too long. Same goes with this visit. And I will take the visit issue more seriously due to all of the previous let downs, flakes or excuses. But this almost falls in to the effort issue from before. It's something that could've been done. Now once she got hit with the reminder then we could've easily went back and canceled the order and my attitude would've ne'er existed. Instead I was a "jerk" because of my tone of voice even though nothing was said. Yeah, I know. Wash, rinse and repeat with me. Continue to be mad at me when I didn't do shit. Anyways, fuck what I feel like I been saying. I'm in the wrong, she's in the right & everything has to be her way in her favor and I can shut the fuck up and smile about it. TOTALLY AWESOME AWESOMENESS! :D

Yup, still ducking

I understand the situation but i was still being ducked about it. Thats my issue. I wanna say some shit but I'm not. That phone call was....fuck it. I'm out. Goin for a drive to free my fucking mind.

Hate It..

I hate feeling ignored or to be ducked. Especially when I'm expected to act immediate on when I say I'll do something. Low key in a somewhat sour mood but I just need to remember the more you expect, the more you set yourself up for disappointment. I'm keeping good faith still, but I can only stay positive for so long.

Anxiously waiting for good news..

Happy Saturday

Had an ok night last night. Unfortunately my Mona Lisa was upset, but today she should have a nice relaxing day. I just want her to enjoy herself and forget about any stress she may have had recently. And because i love her, I just want her to be happy. Today is also Christian's daughter's birthday party which I am not attending. Nothing against Christian at all, but he set up a terrible environment in which not even his own brothers nor dad is showing up. But in any case I hope him and his daughter have a great (hopefully drama free) day. I'm currently chilling at home thinking of Mona (yes I know, I'm a sap when it comes to her) and watching RIO. Enjoy your Saturday.

She gives me the greatest feeling in the universe!

I think I'm gonna just be to myself today. Not in the mood to go to a movie nor has Mags hit me up and Mona I guess is avoiding me. Whatever, I'm just gonna chill. I'm going to Taco Bell and call it a wrap until I hit the gym tonight around 9 or 10. So far the highlight of my day has been the new Xbox Live app for iPhone. It's dope because it allows me to control my Xbox from my phone. Anyways, let me put my moms tags on her car and be out for now.

*Dirty Mind*

The way my imagination races when I think of Mona and the things I want her to do makes me shiver. When I think of our intimate moments, I get this incredible chill down my spine as I...."explode". I imagine her in so many different role play outfits and scenarios. School girl, baby sitter, nurse, dominatrix, I think of it all with her. She is hands down not only the best looking girlfriend I I ever had, but also one of the most beautiful women I have ever had the chance to know. The things she does to me mentally I'm sure pails in comparison to the things she can do physically. I NEED HER AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

Independence Day

Happy 4th of July! I'd prefer to put up a pic of an American flag wrapped around Mona perfect nude body with a sexy pair of heels on...OMG! *drools* but this is the best I can do. And if anyone is playing with fireworks. Please use them responsibly and enjoy your Holiday!

Straight up!

Sex...less

Incredibly horny and sexually frustrated and I'm running out of options. Porn is kinda "ehh" right now ever since....yeah (I'm going to leave it at that, but Mona is WAY better than any porn/pornstar). Mona is always busy, so I'm left hanging. I refuse to cheat and look for pussy else where. This long distance is a killer without any sexual interactions. Before I used to HATE being teased in a text or anything, but now I'll fucking die for it! Unfortunatley I'm asking too much sometimes I guess. I don't know. On the bright side Mona will have a decision for me on when she's coming to visit. But I also refuse any flaking this time. I've done my part on leaving her twitter alone and all that mess. But I'm not sure what will happen if she doesn't come. I'll be beyond heart broken and mad. Anyways, I'm going for a drive (if you can't tell, whenever I have stuff on my mind I drive). Good night.

New day...keeping it moving...it's the first of the month...enjoy it