Irritated a bit and my mind is all over the place on bullshit. I can't sleep and can't help but complain as if that ever fucking helps. No one wants to talk or listen and the only thing I feel I have left is headaches and love for the girl of my dreams that doesn't quite understand me. Family is getting on my nerves. I want August 26th to hurry up and get here. I'm sexually frustrated out of my fucking mind and every little thing is getting to me as if everyone is pushing a fucking button of mine. Rob is a mean ass who's about to get a Fucking reality check next time he wants to get smart with me on something stupid. Facebook is annoying and twitter pisses me off for numerous reasons. And no I'm not talking about any "flirting" or bullshit remarks. It would just be nice to receive someone undivided attention for once. Im finding it harder and harder to have a GOOD day. A GREAT day is asking for way too much right now. I just want to have a day where nothing can get me down and I feel like that won't happen until I pick up Mona from the airport and I'm sure my mood will be untouchable that whole week. No doubt about it, but right now it's a struggle. I'm doing my best to get by and not let things phase me but FUCK! I feel like I'm losing myself and it scares me. I miss being the overly happy "ha ha let's have fun" Prince. Maybe I'm around Rob too much. Maybe I need to stop over thinking dumb shit. Maybe I need to cut social networks. Or maybe I just reaching for something that will never come. I know no one is perfect, but imperfections can always be worked on. I'm trying, but I feel like no one else is or gives a damn. There's only 2 close to perfect people in my eyes to an extent and that's Mona and my sister Danielle. Anyways, I'm gonna go for a drive until I either run out of gas or clear my mind. We'll see which comes first, but something is telling me gas will be. I'm out.
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